Well, my proud parents (and proud fake parents) witnessed me join PCPC today.  Having to get up in front of a large group of people to be recognized never gets less embarrassing.  Especially when your fake dad has an extremely large fake grin on his face and you can’t help but look, but then have to turn away so you aren’t caught laughing, especially when you are in front of the church.  Thank goodness I managed to say my lines perfectly (“I do” five times) and I didn’t end up tripping in front of everyone.  I did have one small wardrobe malfunction, but hopefully only the really close up people saw my upside down, flipped inside out name tag.  We can’t all be perfect all the time.  But some of us can come awfully close, ahem.

The last 6-8 months have been a growing and learning process.  God has been working in my heart and I finally understand what it feels like to be thirsty for Him.  With the help of amazing friends and the church, I’ve begun to understand what a relationship with Him is really like.  This afternoon I finished reading Tim Keller’s book, “The Prodigal God”, and I after I read this quote, I read it a couple of times because it exactly sums up these last few months for me.  It’s a quote by Jonathan Edwards.  And I’m guessing we aren’t talking about the ex presidential candidate.

“There is a difference between believing that God is holy and gracious, and having a new sense on the heart of the loveliness and beauty of that holiness and grace.  The difference between believing that God is gracious and tasting that God is gracious is as different as having a rational belief that honey is sweet and having the actual sense of its sweetness”.

It’s taken me a while to get a sense of His sweetness, but I’m finally getting there.

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